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observation de vous;

observation de moi
on isolé tiennent le premier rôle
vous ne savez pas qui vous êtes
j'ai vous ai toujours aimé
mais vous avez pris mon amour pour accordé
parole au revoir

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an almost perfect lady.

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whats your take on standing in front of everyone and telling the entire world you're in love with this guy or girl you love. embarrassed? shy off? happy? when i got asked back, i said i'd do it willingly. now when i think about it, i'm not sure. i'm not sure about what i'm not sure about. is it because i don't know if i love the person enough? when's enough, enough? or is it because i'm really shy about the whole world knowing about me and my love? but if i really love someone, i'd really want the entire world to know i love that person right? because i want to show off that person to the entire world. and because i want everyone to know how blessed and happy i feel right? should it be that case?

or maybe i just don't understand. if you hold someone's hand as you sleep, and as you share your hopes and dreams with a someone, or if you kiss someone with so much love and passion, or if you proclaim to the entire world that he or she is your girl or boyfriend and someone who is potentially the love of your life, the one you will spend your life with, grow old in sickness and health, how exactly can you be embarrassed? maybe it's disappointing hearing such statements from different people. embarrassed because one isn't the kind of person to do it? but love changes everything. love makes you do the impossible. love makes you blind. love makes you do so much than you imagined you could. love gives you the strength to be much more than you are, love makes you be the best person you could be. so how can anyone be ashamed of love? how can anyone be embarrassed of love? it's hurting to know that people aren't ready to announce out loud and in joy that they have found love with each other. it is so hard itself to find someone to love from the bottom of your heart, someone you want to simply be with all the time. and when they find each other, they refuse to acknowledge or shout out or celebrate at all? it feels so sad. it makes me feel so sad. it makes me question the simple meaning of love. it makes me double up my thoughts which i held so strongly, or used to.

and if that's the case, why is it i'm not sure if i'm willing to do such a simple thing? why do i still have some sort of hesitation? because i know the other person won't do it? or because i may not be really so deeply in love with the person? or because i just don't think it's necessary to show off to everyone else? or is it because i know that though i love that person, i will never be with that person? or is it because i don't even know if what we have is love.



ps. brother mike, you've been thoroughly missed. i'm glad to see you again. (:

- everything's just temporary;
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